A week

Thanks to all of you who left words of encouragement, don't worry, i'm alright here. I just need someone to lend me their ear and listen to me once in a while. I always try to explain but people don't seem to understand, especially those who are not here with me. Thanks again because all i need is your support and understanding to help me to make it through.

Well, recently life is busy here as we're preparing for PIDC Cup. Practising almost everyday, from after class til night. We have to train for sport events, performance, house cheer... Everyday is so occupied and i still feel very energetic eventhough i get leg cramps after that. But besides these fun, there are still some grudges happening behind. Should i say it's.... -> politics... argh, i just hate it but when there's people, there is politics. As long as no one steps on my tail then i won't go stepping on people's tail.

I'm also in this weird situation feeling in dilemma. Thinking of the past, which people whom i treated sincerely does not appear to be what they are but the people whom i misjudged are truthfully great friends. It's so hard sometimes, and i do feel in dilemma. Instinct is what i'm depending on.

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I was out for house cheer leading practise and we were trying new stunts to increase the intensity of the cheer. It was so unfortunate when CK and I were trying on new stunts, i couldn't balance her so she fell and hit her chin. I felt so bad as it was my fault for bending my leg which cause her to fall. Argh!! ISH!! So angry with myself...!! The other time we played football and i kicked the ball towards CJ and hit her face. Why am i so careless?! I learned from it, safety always comes first while doing dangerous stunts. Should be more cautious next time.

Emolicious to the extend i'm P!$$3D 0FF!

At times I get so pissed off that I just want to throw out the four letter words but it is still not a good word to say so I’ll just shout inside my heart.

Today has been a disastrous day starting from 9am. Our first hour was supposedly Tooth Morpho theory followed by practicals. We waited at the auditorium till 9.20am and someone receive msg telling us to proceed to pracs. As we walked to the elevator, a lecturer came and chase us back to the audi. Nvr mind. We then waited for 10 minutes in audi and an unfamiliar faced lecturer again told us to go to prac, so we as the ‘obedient’ students they want us to be, walked all the way to the elevator AGAIN. When the elevator door opened, our classmates who were waiting upstairs told us they were scolded and chased back to auditorium for theory! FLOWER BRIDGE (translate to Cantonese)!! We walked for twice and get scolded for nothing. If this happened in the western country students would have walk out of the class! It was 9.45am when the theory class started.

Came back to my hostel for lunch, found out something my roommate did which did make me angry but not pissed. But since I chose to forgive, I shall learn to forget. It is an irresponsible act and I hoped she learned from her mistake. Everyone makes mistakes including me and we deserve a second chance. Shall give her the benefit of doubt.

Went for Dental Materials in the afternoon, the lecturer was barking again. If you have read the previous 2 posts about the lecturer scolding us, it’s the same lecturer AGAIN. So this time I wonder if she’s problematic or are we the problematic one. But if we are then why aren’t all the department treating us like that but only ‘THIS’ particular department.. hmmm….

Tomorrow is my Physiology Practicals Internals exam, which was postponed from 12 August to 23 September (how efficient ppl here are). I’m trying to concentrate so I have to release my emotions before I can settle down.

I have to learn to control my temper. Recently life’s been rough and I get agitated so easily. I wish I can be as mature as Isaac or as calm as my mom who tackles troubles with a smile. Forgive me for using rough words but these are what that’s in my mind. And I do feel calmer now.

I admit I complain a lot

Why? Why? Why?
Why do we have so many tests? Endless test? Tests after tests?
Everyone tell me because it's not easy to be a doctor/dentist.. Dentist also human what.. dentist also want to enjoy life, dentist also want to laze around and dream all day.. Just because some people don't have life and do not know how to enjoy the quality of life doesn't mean others have to be the same.. We have many things to do after class ok.. eg cook, laundry, homework, nap etc We do not want our study life to be just studying, if it is so then after 5 years i guess we're all nothing but zombies, then everyone can call us Dr Zombie..

ps: I would dream that lessons can be reduce to 6 hours a day, give us Saturdays off, extend our holiday to 2 months so that we can spend time with our FAMILY at HOME.
pss: I want to thank my family for bearing with me and listening to my complains each time i call.. Yea i have endless complains too..

Random photos

teeth(upper and lower front) that we carved during tooth morphology.. i can carve teeth! anyone wants some teeth as birthday presies?

This is the fridge in my dorm.. haha.. it's hilarious yet meaningful..

Lessons to be learnt

Incident 1
We went for dinner at the restaurant opposite our hostel and we ordered our food from the same waiter as usual. We ordered 3 sweet melon juices. Minutes later, he came in with 3 pineapple juices. This is not the first time and we've tolerated enough of this crap so we questioned him.

Us: What juice is this?
Waiter: Pineapple
Us: We ordered sweet melon juice.
Waiter: No more melon juice. He insisted on serving us the juice.
Us: Take these away we don't want it.
Waiter: Shaking his head, still forcing us to take the juice. No more melon juice.
Us: If you don't have melon juice, tell us you don't have, why serve us pineapple juice? Take it back.
Waiter: Looking bad. He asked us to hold on as he go check out.

He came back later and said there's no more melon juice so we asked him to take the pineapple juice away.

Incident 2
Sometimes when we buy things, we don't have small change so we have no choice but to give Rs100 note (=RM10).

Cashier: Change?
Me: No change.
Cashier: No change?.. shaking his head waiting for the change to drop from heaven while looking at me.
Me: NO CHANGE!!
Cashier: Showing his black face as if it's my fault while searching for the change in the drawer. And he has the change!
Me: (Damn it.. This is money larh! Don't want to earn money is it?!)

Incident 3
Lecturers: We expect you to give us respect, at least basic respect as lecturers bla bla bla
Ironically, have you as lecturers respected us as students? We've been treated like kids, quietly accepting your critcism even if it's ridiculous, even with a sarcacism in the tone, even if you're shouting at us, we've been keeping quiet all these while and we've never argued back. All I want to say is, we also don't expect much, we too want to be treated with respect, at least the basic respect as students. Its just a mutual thing, when people respect you, automatically you will respect them in return. It's that simple.

Emolicious 3

Emotions boiling...
I understand deep inside how you struggled and how much u wished to be free
I understand your circumstances but as a friend I still quietly wished that this is not true
This is the second time a very closely attached friend is leaving me but this time it hit me harder
Everyone is telling you to stay but your heart wants you to go
What can I say but follow your heart..
As a friend, all we could do is to support and help you walk through this together
We've tried and i believe you've even tried harder
But I think this is almost the end of our chapter together in India
I hope that you've chose a life thats easier and happier for you and your family
This is just the beginning of the end and i believe we will meet again someday, sometime, somewhere...

will miss the moments we shared... do remember us always as we will remember you XOXO

Emolicious 2

I have caries!! How can that happen.. I thought my teeth was perfect until last night, when i was chewing my dinner i felt pain in my teeth and gums. And i knew i had to treat it.. By drilling a bigger hole on my infected teeth and seal it with some restorative material.

My day started with self indulging in pricking finger and squeezing for blood during Physiology practicals. We actually prick our finger manually using lancet, a needle like equipment with thick head and thin tail towards the end. To tell the truth i get more and more chicken shit everyweek until i merely touched my finger with the lancet today, touched not pricked.. but when i pricked Dashni's i did it quite hard and the blood was oozing out of her finger, guess it was because i'm not the one feeling painful... haha... evil laugh*

Anatomy was as usual.. sat in the dissection hall with a few corps at the back of the class. Didn't do much as Elvis spoke so soft that only he could hear himself. Have to study by ourselves.

ODS was fine but i fell a sleep half way through the class and drool a little.. haha.. after a satisfying meal, can't help it. But Dr Monica was as nice as usual...

DM was the suckiest of all. The lecturer spend the whole hour scolding us about our discipline and behaviour. She said we should show basic respect to the lecturers such as stand up and wish when the lecturer walks into the class, wish them when we see them outside the class, do not argue with them or question them even if we have our principle because that means we're being rude to the elders bla bla bla... wow, welcome to Stone Age!

The day ended with something fun tho.. like celebrating Hooi Thang's birthday then carrying lantern and walking around the campus.. This also signifies we're ushering the coming Lantern Festival! Yay!! I LOVE MOONCAKES!!!!!!!!!!

Merdeka!!

Happy Independence Day & Happy Weekend!

The atmosphere here is obviously not as merry as back home because:

1. Malaysia's National Day has nothing to do with Indians.

2. We, Malaysians do not get any public holiday.

3. Comparatively we are not as patriotic as Indians.

Besides these reasons, it's because our holidays are coming to an end. Two weeks just flew like that, i was just sending my friends off the other day and now they're back. Everyone's on the jetlack plus mondays blue mood because class is starting tomorrow. It's alright as i guess everyone's excited to meet up with each other again.

Today's not only our national day but it's our friends' birthday! We have Juliana and Cai Shan born on the same day, month and year. And Dashni who's one year younger. As i was quite free during the holidays, i made a card for Dashni.

Thats my new room behind. I went through a lot of hardwork and determination to fight for this room. It's all worthwhile as finally i can call my room a ROOM. A spacious room with big study table, comfortable bed, soft pillows, big washroom, cooling and roomy feeling. I had a good sleep during the first night without any dreams. Arhh... more of these nights to come~

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{Hate the education system here. Can't they give a longer holiday? Why are they so stingy with holidays? If a developed country can produce better scholars even with a 3 months summer break, i don't see how a 2 months break can affect in anyway.} Reason no. 278 i dislike this place...